Talk about the pot calling the kettle black! That was me. Years ago Phil was changing an area of his life but I was full of doubt that he could. I think I was so in the habit of being critical on the subject that really I was the one that was having trouble changing. It was like I was just waiting for him to fail so I could jump him again. Almost hoping he would. That is when I clearly heard the Lord say "Let him be new." It was like I had been caught with my hand in the cookie jar! I was the one doing something wrong. Let him, be new. Let him. Just stay the heck out of the way! I flashed on all the ways the Lord changed ME. Phil let me change. Phil let me be new. I had more nerve than a squawking chicken bursting into a Samurai convention.
How evil is that? To hope someone fails. He was taking over a job I had always done but complained about. I am usually the positive one in the relationship but somehow this just got twisted. It was like I didn't want the job, but somehow enjoyed being the martyr having to DO the job. Here was God, trying to bless me, but I was too narcissistic to see it. I was focused on "Wait, you mean I won't get to complain about this anymore?" Like attention to my complaining was feeding some part of my sick soul! Yuck. I don't think I am the only one that has done this. What is it with humans anyway? Our brains get whacked by an event and boom....there goes rational thinking out the front door. We get caught up in a cycle and pedal it off a cliff. Why do we want people to fail? Competition? For us to look better? To prove we are right? I realized I did not want to be in cahoots with this line of thinking. It was NOT my friend. It had been around a long time so it seemed like a friend. Something I was comfortable with apparently, until I could see it clearly. So I did the right thing, thanks to God.
Then I became Phil's cheerleader.
2 Corinthians 5:17 says "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away, behold all things have become new." When Phil and I remarried, this round as Christians, this became our scripture. It is on our headboard. Turns out it is good for everyday. Jesus lets us have New Years day, every day. We fail, and yet there is a wheelbarrow full of fresh mercy on our doorstep every morning. We can start again. Begin again.
Lamentations 3:22-23 "The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
2 Corinthians 3:18 "But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord."
As we seek the Lord, we are ALL changing. Let yourself be new, let your loved ones be new. Give grace and mercy today. Being new can be tough! So get out the pom poms baby, somebody needs you cheering them on!
Author: Shar Geisert